12 days to go...

Right now, as I am getting comfortable into my work and being with my family and friends, I am honestly at a point where I feel reluctance about going to China.  I am quite sure that as it grows a little closer ( maybe a few days before I go) I will become more excited about it but as for right now I just kind of wonder why I signed up for all of this lol... I am so blessed to be able to go and have wanted to visit China for a long time but now I am wondering why I didn't choose a simpler life of being at home with family and friends and working closer to home maybe even schooling closer to home (if schooling at all).  I guess you 'don't know what you got til it's gone' and I am sure that if I gave up this opportunity just because things would be 'easier' I would be saying the same thing.